I am indebted to Kihā "Billy" Pimental who inspired this
conversation.
My life is ordinary. I'm slightly overweight. I no longer try to hide
the unwanted bulge of my belly. I live in a nice cottage which I don't
dust often enough. My car needs a wash too. I enjoy watching "reality"
TV and music videos of golden oldies. I like comparing prices in
the supermarket and getting the best deals.
I'm committed to the miraculous. I'm committed to who we really are. I
mean to who we really are, like pure consciousness,
like life itself, like the source of all possibility,
like
god
in our universe. As long as I can remember I've known who I really
am. Waking up in the morning and just being alive is enough for me. It
makes me happy. It took me many years to realize not all people live
this way and why I, not knowing that, was out of step - at
first. Now
who I am
comes forth very naturally into the world. I am committed to your
commitment.
I don't always have what I want but somehow I have what I need. I dream
about moving to Hawai'i, living on the beach and surfing every day. I'm
slightly frustrated I'm not there right now.
I live inside a self-generated paradigm which allows everything
including inconsistencies to be the way it is and the way it isn't. If
I notice something is inconsistent I examine its source and I put in
corrections. Being inconsistent isn't wrong. But arguably,
noticing inconsistencies and not putting in corrections is
playing small.
I notice I like to look good in everything I do. I think
it's a good advertisement for transformation. Lately I've come to
realize the best advertisement for transformation is having the courage
to share
who I am
and what's happening in my life exactly as it occurs
regardless of whether it looks good, or not. Whatever is going on is
just
what's so.
Interestingly enough what's so is closer to the miraculous
than any opinion that this doesn't look good could ever
be.
Occasionally I don't live what I stand for. I ascribe that to being
human. I'm not particularly interested in continuing doing what I'm
doing when I'm not living what I stand for. Like being inconsistent,
not always living what I stand for isn't wrong either. But when I
notice I'm not living what I stand for, I put in corrections. I
communicate apologies if they're what's needed. I regard admitting
error as the act of a big person.
It's clear to me if I don't invent new possibilities, nothing
extraordinary will happen and I'll continue to live my same old
ordinary life, just getting by (I'm good at coping). I'm
committed to creating the future by looking at what's not working, then
inventing new possibilities for myself and my life. When I do that,
extraordinary things happen. I'm committed to inventing the possibility
of communication, transformation, and freedom, and I'm committed to
inventing it in such a way that it's freely available for everyone.
The world already provides ample evidence of what things look like when
there's not much of it about.
Once in a while I like an ice cold beer. Perhaps I don't read enough.
I eat healthily but I'm no gourmet chef. I procrastinate. I like
listening to the radio. Sometimes I don't floss.