I
wrote
this essay for those
graduate
friends of mine who've said the impact of their
participation
in
Werner's work,
while life-altering, faded after a while.
They're right. Left entirely alone, the experience they had can and
will fade. So here's the
straight
inside scoop on what has that happen, and a powerful view of
recontextualizing
and ongoingly re-empowering it.
Say whut? Now wait a minute, you say. I did it. I got it.
But you say that's not it? That's right. Power isn't
powerful when it's past tense. Power doesn't exist as a
memory of power. Power only lives in the moment. A memory
of power is not power. Power, once experienced and now a memory,
must be regenerated for it to be powerful again - or it stays in the
past. An experience lives in the moment. A memory of an experience
is not the experience. Transformation lives in the moment - or
better, it lives moment to moment (if you prefer). A
memory of transformation is not transformation. Transformation
is accessible as your ongoing generation of your experience of it, not
as the experience you once had of it. A dyed T-shirt once dyed is
always dyed - ergo a dyed T-shirt is not a good
analogy
for transformation.
When you registered to
participate
in
Werner's work,
you wanted
answers.
But it didn't give you
answers,
did it? It gave you
questions
ie
tools
to use in inquiring so that you could discover the material for
yourself. You
participated
in
Werner's work,
and when you did, you were offered and tried out a
set of tools
to use inquiring into what has life work and what has you get in the
way of life working. But isn't life an ongoing, never-ending process?
If you got that
set of tools
and you deployed them back then, and you don't ongoingly deploy them
today ... and today ... and today, then at worst you never really got
them in the first place, and at best you left them in the past where
they can't do you much good. Some things are best left in the past. The
profundity of discovering life working for yourself, isn't one of them.
A clear indication that you may just have left that
set of tools
in the past where they can't do you much good, are
rubber-band snappy retorts spoken out loud (or silently)
in response to conversations for transformation, such as "I know
that!", "I already know that", "I understand that" etc ie the usual
gang of suspects providing compelling living proof that you're no
longer generating transformation ongoingly moment to moment. It's
pernicious. We fall back into it so easily. We all do. You do. I do (I
especially do). It's when I assume I know the
material because I once experienced it in the past, and so I no longer
need to generate it ongoingly moment to moment, that there's no new,
open, fresh
listening
for transformation, no
beginner's
mind
if you will.
Beginner's mind
is the Petri dish for transformation.
Beginner's mind
means
listening
openly to the material as if I don't know it, even if I've heard it
before. On the other hand,
listening
from already knowing the material, is smart rat's mind. If
you're honest, you'll see the cost of
listening
with smart rat's mind rather than with
beginner's mind,
is transformation. That's being pragmatic,
straight.
It's a simple enough rut to get stuck in, one in which we all get stuck
from time to time. You do. I do (I especially do). But when
transformation isn't being generated ongoingly, it goes out of
existence. Neither the menu nor the memory of the taste of the filet
mignon, is the steak. In this way, neither the pointer to nor the
memory of transformation, is transformation. So when you say things
like
"Participating
in
Werner's work
was great ... and then the experience faded", that's tantamount
to you saying "I'm no longer taking responsibility for transforming my
life.". Consider if it did fade, what's more likely is it faded when
you went AWOL from the experience.
A smarter approach may be to complete the experience you had back then,
then leave it there in the past. However awesome it was, however great
it was back then, however profound it was, leave it there in the past.
Forget about it. Moreover, ongoingly remember to forget
about it. Transformation not ongoingly generated in the present yet
remembered from the past, isn't worth much. But as an experience
inspired in the past and now ongoingly generated for the
future, it has lasting power.