Now with all that said, I'd like to
share
something profound I
got
about the
mother
of my
children.
It goes to
the heart of the
matter
of the enormous
gift
Jolin is in
my life,
regardless of the fact that we're no longer married, regardless of
the fact that our lives are now in different orbits. Since we were
divorced,
my life
has been a series of trials doing what I had to do to
get
myself back in
the game
again (divorce is a body blow - make no mistake). I
got
my
health
back on track. I
got
my finances back on track. I
got
my
creativity
back on track. Most important, I
got
my
relationship
with each of my precious
children
back on track. All of the above took thirteen years in total.
Then one day I was shaving, looking at myself in my bathroom
mirror,
quietly and privately
celebrating
this turnaround (this impossible turnaround). I had
triumphed
against all odds, and I was feeling pretty good ie I was feeling
pretty cocky as they say in Merrye Olde
Englande. And what I was feeling pretty cocky about was
how
I had triumphed over the seemingly impossible odds
alone ... and that's when I heard a
voice
saying "Oh, so you think you bore and raised your three
incredible
children
all by yourself
Laurence,
do you?".
That's when
I got it.
That's when it hit me - and I said to the
mirror
"Oh my
God
Jolin,
I love you!
Thank you! Thank you so much!".
That's
how
(or at least that's the genesis of
how)
the five of us came to be seated in Aroma
Indian
Cuisine, the nice yet very
ordinary
restaurant on a tree-lined street in Benicia, California at around
7:30pm on Friday November 10, 2017 eating dinner, together in the
same place at the same
time
for the first
time
in thirteen years.
What I
got
is the
possibility
of the five of us experiencing
wholeness,
cohesion, and unity - but when
the truth
is told, that
experience
has less to do with the legal and institutionalized agreement of
marriage than we
ordinarily
consider.
We'd like them to go together. We want them to go together. We
expect they'd go together. And often they don't. We've
found out (sometimes to our surprise, oftentimes to our chagrin)
that just being married neither guarantees nor safeguards the
experience
of
family
wholeness,
cohesion, and unity - if it did, all married couples'
families
would
experience
it, and the divorce statistics wouldn't be as outrageous as they
are.
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