Cakebread Cellars, Rutherford, and Goosecross Cellars, Yountville
California, USA
October 13, 2019
This essay,
Yes You Really Are That Big
Big,
is the twelfth in the open second group of
Experiences Of A Friend
(click
here
for the complete first group of thirty five
Experiences Of A Friend):
Werner
has said a lot - that's the colloquial way to say it - since March 1971
when
this work
burst forth
magnificent,
from the
Golden Gate Bridge
onto the
world
stage
front and center,
making its dramatic presence known on
the planet
for the first time. The
rigorous
way to say that, is he's spoken a lot - my distinction
being that saying is just talking, but speaking generates something.
There's nothing wrong with just talking - but as a distinction, a
generating component isn't present in it.
Werner's
work,
like
Zen,
one of the
essential disciplines
from whence it sprang (at least from which the earliest
iterations of it sprang) is chock-full of seeming
paradoxes
and apparently flagrant contradictions. For example, if it's all
empty and
meaningless,
then why bother with it at all? (indeed, why bother with
anything at all?). Oh, and if there's
nothing to
get?
then why are there so many processes, inquiries, spirited conversations
and courses from which we get something?
If we examine what's transpired since 1971,
the work
has undergone metamorphosis after metamorphosis.
Werner's
ongoing creativity (and re-creativity) has proved to be incessant,
unflagging, non-stopping. It's endless. Yet just when I think I've
gotten everything there is on offer ie just when I think I've gotten
everything there is to get, there's more! Just when I
think all the critical distinctions of transformation have been laid
bare and revealed, there's more ... and more ... and still
ever more.
What is this telling us? In the midst of all the
paradoxes
and contradictions, what does this say about
the work?
Not to mention, what does it say about us, about who we really
are? Almost everyone who embarks on this exploration with
Werner
starts by thinking
the work
will make them better ie will fix something. To be sure,
there is (at least in the
beginning)
some truth in that. But then once you're better, and once whatever
there was to be fixed, is fixed, then what? Well ...
then there are
graduate
explorations. Explorations? Into what exactly? Into
integrity
itself, into
leadership,
into
mastery of life
- it's, you know, really heady stuff for
Joe Sixpack
me.
But wait! If there's always more, if there's always something else,
then what exactly isWerner
saying? That earlier explorations are outdated and jaded? No longer
valid? That I haven't got it all (at least not yet)? That's there's
more I must do before I can say "I'm complete"? (Wait! If
this is it, then why is there always more?).
I've been looking at this recently, and what I've been seeing, is so
awesome, so fundamentally
rocking-my-world,
so straight to
the heart
of what transformation really makes available, that it's left me
moved to tears
on more than one occasion, the most recent of which was while selecting
groceries in the supermarket aisle (while other shoppers looked on, at
first askance, then politely turned away from tearful me, leaving me to
swim
undisturbed in whatever it was I was
swimming
in).
What I got to get down with, is
Werner's
essential communication (that is, my
interpretation of his essential communication) prior to
all subsequent communications of his: his baseline, his foundation, the
bedrock. It's this: "Yes you really are that
big"
- yes you really are that
big
... like a support, like a validation, like a ... like a ... a
demonstration.
The repetition, the re-invention, the re-creation, the presenting the
old, then the new, and then the newer, from this angle, from that
angle, in these terms, in those terms, keep telling me just one thing:
yes I really am that
big
- over and over and over
again and again and again and
again and again and again.
I'll ante
Werner's work
doesn't reveal who you are. Really. Rather it reveals who you
aren't. When you drop who you aren't, who you are will burst
forth
magnificent.