Conversations For Transformation:
Essays Inspired By The Ideas Of Werner Erhard
Conversations For Transformation
Essays By Laurence Platt
Inspired By The Ideas Of Werner Erhard
And More
Resistance
Diamond Oaks, Oakville, California, USA
February 11, 2007
"What you resist persists."
...
Werner's
view of life as a rollercoaster really rings true with me. You can get
in the
front and center seat
and really enjoy the ride. Or you can resist being on the ride, in
which case you're dragged along behind the car kicking and screaming.
Getting off is not an option.
Lately as a discipline I've imposed on myself, I've been noticing what
happens when I resist life. I've been noticing what happens when I
resist being on the ride. I've noticed I resist in one of three
situations:
I resist when I'm losing rather than when I'm winning.
I resist when I'm dominated. Interestingly enough, I
don't resist when I'm dominating.
I resist when I'm made wrong. Interestingly enough, I
don't resist when I'm made right. Nor do I resist when I
am right. What's also interesting is if I'm wrong and I
get I'm wrong, I don't resist that either.
When I ask myself why I resist all of the above, the
answer is simple. I resist the all of above because I don't
like all of the above. That's easy to get. It's also a very
naïve way to deal with what I don't like because much to my own
chagrin when I tell the truth about it, resisting what I don't like
doesn't make it go away. If anything, resisting what I don't
like entrenches it deeper. And I ... don't ...
like ... that ... either.
But it's true. Whether I like it or not, "what you resist
persists" - to quote Werner Erhard. In other words, resistance
causes persistence.
I've also been noticing what happens when I notice what I
resist. If I simply notice what I resist rather than
resisting what I resist, I get calm and accepting. Then
there's nothing to resist. Then there's only
what's so.
To be sure, appropriate responses to the things I resist are called for. But
instead of setting up those responses begrudgingly from a place I don't
like, I'm setting them up inside a possibility of being calm and accepting.
Now they're just another item on my to do list rather than the entire
catastrophe.
There's something else I've been noticing and it's this: from time to
time when I notice what I resist, I notice what I resist as a
cure, as a fix.
The voice
is saying "I don't like this. So I'll notice I don't like it. And
that'll fix it (or make it go away) ...".
It's very pernicious. I see the automaticity of "I don't like losing, I
don't like being dominated, I don't like being made wrong.". There's no
creativity, there's no choice in "I don't like". It's all
machinery.
Whether I like it or not (and I don't), resisting it is completely
inauthentic,
not to mention futile. When I resist it, it persists.
There's a fine line, a fine distinction between simply noticing what I
resist, and noticing what I resist in order to.
When I simply notice what I resist, I'm at cause, I'm source. When I
simply notice what I resist, it occurs as resistance and
I, the observer, am free. When I notice what I resist in order
to, I'm at the effect of it. I'm tied to it in a deadly embrace, in
a fatal attraction. It's a Chinese finger trap. The more I
struggle to be free of it, the tighter I'm entangled in it.
When I let what I don't like be
what's so,
when I let what I resist be
what's so,
I'm free.
