Werner
Erhard's
"Just like the front and
the back of the hand, being and action are distinct yet
inseparable" which is the
source quote
for this essay, singularly alters my experience of who I really am -
which is to say trying it on for size to see if I can
discover it for
myself,
singularly alters my experience of who I really am. For sure, while
a great deal of what
Werner
has distinguished over the
decades
alters my experience of who I really am, this quote is one of those
that bears special mention, scrutiny, and
attention.
Until
I listened
Werner
distinguishing this (that is, until I even
considered it
like a possibility), what I'd got is that who (or what) I really am
is distinct from what I do. I'd got that who I really am is
distinct from my actions. I'd got that who I really am ie that my
being occurs in a domain prior to what I do, a domain
prior to my actions ie that my being is required for my actions (my
actions occur in the space of my being) but my actions aren't
required for my being. When I got that my being and my actions are
distinct, it wasn't that I'd got they're distinct from something I
observed or figured out. It was I am that they're
distinct - like I am that the floor is down and the sky is up. What
I didn't yet get is that my being and my actions are
inseparable
"just like the front and
the back of the hand".
That's a different order of things. It's my being's and my actions'
connectedness. That's an order of unity which is greater than my
actions just requiring my being.
Just like the front and
the back of the hand
go with (as
Alan Watts
may have said) each other together as one, I'm
considering
/
discovering
/ fleshing out that who I really am may be more than just my being
(that's no longer the complete picture, it's not the full story).
Considering
myself to be just my being, turns out to be only half the picture -
like the hand isn't just either its front or its back. It has to be
/ it occurs as / it
shows up
as (and is) both. In the light of this, I'm
seeing
the very real possibility that who I really am may not just be my
being ie it may not just be the space in which my actions occur. I'm
now
seeing
who I really am as being-actions ie as
beingactions (one unit). Who I really am may be that-I-be-do
ie thatIbedo. That may be who I really am.
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