That's how it went for years ... until one day I noticed my life
(which is to say the major activities which make up
the core elements of my life) has become a triangle -
a predictable, repetitive triangle, the seeming
antithesis of variety in fact. What
wasn't predictable was instead of the quality of Life
diminishing with less variety (which was the old measure), it's
expanding. The
needle
on the quality of Life gauge moved over to FULL
- and stays there.
Here's what makes up the three points of my life as this triangle:
Cowboy Cottage
my home
(writing)
to Exertec Health and Fitness Center the gym
(swimming)
to the van
(driving)
to my home
writing
to the gym
swimming
to the van
driving,
my home
writing,
the gym
swimming,
the van
driving
... over and over again and again. My life now is the triangle
between these three points, each one serving the others, each one
ensuring the
integrity
of the others, each one essential to the others. If
one of them were missing or ineffective, this triangle of my life
would have no
integrity.
Here I'm saying
integrity
to convey
workability
- like a bicycle wheel missing spokes hasn't got
integrity
ie it doesn't
work.
It's in giving over to the quality of Life afforded by
(ie surprisingly afforded by) this simple triangle,
which is an eye opener. This triangle, even in its simplicity, is a
much stronger foundation than any of my more complex and
complicated endeavors and
enterprises
of the past ever were or ever could be. It leaves me free to come
from the
integrity
of my situation rather than having to focus on its survivability
/ viability. The more I do this, the stronger this simple
triangle is becoming. And the stronger this simple triangle
becomes, the more predictable it becomes.
Here's what's interesting: the more predictable it becomes, the
more predictable my life becomes, the less variety my life has -
clearly a failure under the old measure. Yet the more I do this,
the possibility of
being
creative,
the possibility of being whole and complete, the possibility
of being generous, and (I'll say this though it may risk
imbuing this conversation with a
context
it doesn't really require) the possibility of being
enlightened all become tangible with ease, grace,
endurance, and viability. In opting for this simple triangle of
integrity,
the rewards are much more plentiful - indeed, they
show up
all by themselves.
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