Fantesca Estate, Spring Mountain Road, Napa Valley, California,
August 21, 2021
"I would rather be ashes than dust! I would rather that my spark
should burn out in a brilliant blaze than it sould be stifled by
dry-rot. I would rather be a superb meteor, every atom of me in
magnificent glow, than a sleepy and permanent planet. The function of
man is to live, not to exist. I shall not waste my days trying to
prolong them. I shall use my time."
... Jack London
Setting Up For The Rapids,
is the fifth in a sextet conceived during my second sabbatical:
I am indebted to Bruce Preville who inspired this conversaiton and
* * *
I'm being swept along by a river which will eventually take me through
the rapids. It's inevitable. There's nothing I can do to avoid going
through the rapids. What I can do, is paddle - or swim, or
row - into the optimum place in the river I can be in for when I
inevitably do go through the rapids, then surrender to the river's
direction and power.
What I mean by paddling into the optimum place in the river I can be in
for when I inevitably do go through the rapids, is one, recontextualize
who I really am, and two, maintain integrity - then let the river /
life take its course (it turns out the way it turns out anyway).
The canoe I'm sitting in, is bound for the rapids. I can sit here,
exactly where I am, and be swept through the rapids, possibly
inserted into a rock ... OR ... noticing the
coming changes, I can dip my paddle into the river just so,
thereby facilitating ease and
rushing maelstroms ahead.