together" is an out-dated colloquialism. For starters, we've imposed a
on how we define our
today. It's no longer what was once loosely implied in
together (which was the precursor to "once I made my
two things became obvious: one, doing so was a lot less difficult than
it once seemed it would be; and two, it was accompanied by the sudden,
glaring, shocking realization "Now that I've
together ie now that I've made my
is this all there is?".
At about the same
as I realized, dumbfounded, "Wow! If this is all there is, it's
just ... not ...
... all the effort", an even more galling
arose: "Aside from a few
does my having
together make any
difference at all?" - which roughly translates to the
almost impossible to
my head around "Will my having lived and
to which was the even more dumbfounding: "Dude, are you
serious? You matter not a whit! You're not merely
insignificant: you're less than insignificant.".
I want you to
that like a fact, not like some kind of
A billion is a thousand
ie 1,000,000,000 ie a one followed by nine zeroes. A
trillion is a
ie 1,000,000,000,000 ie a one followed by twelve zeroes. There are
one hundred billionstars
ie 100,000,000,000 ie a one followed by eleven zeroes. Coincidentally
there are also one hundred billion
If each of the one hundred billion
have one hundred billion
(which, on average, is quite likely), then the number of
is ten billion trillion ie 10,000,000,000,000,000,000,000
ie a one followed by twenty two zeroes.
very carefully (I really want you to
this): you and I live on one tiny little
orbiting just one ... of those ten ... billion ...
Here's where it's so
stuck: if you make it
something that you're less than insignificant, you're likely
stuck. If you're less than insignificant, and you add to that
(borrowing from existentialism) that it's all
empty and meaningless,
the sludge of rising ennui is enough to
suffocate your life. No kidding!