What it comes down to when I leave my considerations behind ie what it
comes down to when I relegate my doubts to the automaticity they are,
and simply let them be, without affording them undue
attention,
is
"This is IT!".
Yet if (that is, when) I tell
the truth
about it, I don't live
"This is IT!"
always. I live it some of the
time
- a goodly portion of the
time
to be sure, but not always. The rest of the
time
I'm dealing with life, surviving it, till eventually I'll
revert to ... well ...
"This is IT!"
again.
Telling more of
how
it occurs for me, the swing from
living
"This is IT!",
to dealing with life, to surviving it, then reverting to
"This is IT!"
again,
happens
all by itself. And the only vote I seem to have in this process, is
this: when I realize I'm no longer
living
"This is IT!",
I remind myself "Hey!
This is
IT!",
at which point it's
"This is
IT!"all over
again. It seems to me this is the best it
gets
for us
human beings.
We're neither designed nor constructed to live
"This is IT!"
all the
time.
But we do have the
power
ie we do have the
choice
to revert to it as soon as we realize we're (temporarily) no longer
living
it.
When I'm
living
"This is IT!",
I notice there's a
possibility
(if you will) which goeswith (as
Alan Watts
may have said) the place I'm
living
from. It's the
possibility
of being
open
and
here.
Being on
the planet
and
face to face
with other
human beings,
brings with it all the considerations of being
open
and intimate and vulnerable. Most if not all of these considerations
are on full automatic. That's easily seen after a certain
inquiry ie after a certain delving ie after a certain authentic
introspection (or by
being around Werner
- the latter is arguably much, much faster). I'm either being
open
... or I'm not being
open.
There's no halfway. Being
open
is its own practice. It's its own revelation. When I be
open,
I'm
open.
When I don't, I'm not. That may sound
stoopidsimple.
It's actually very profound: there's
nothing to do
in order to be
openexcept be
open.
The challenge of just being, with all guards down, is met by
being
open.
The practice of being
opendevelops being
open.
It's its own shortcut. It's its own discipline. That's the first part
of the
possibility:
the
"open"
part.
That's its normal characteristic ie that's the normal cycle: I'm
open
and
here,
I'm not, I'm
open
and
here.
I'm not, I'm
open
and
here.
The only difference between us
ordinary
folk, and all those great
masters
who dwell in high
states
of so-called
enlightenment
(ie in
open-and-here-ness?)
is they choose to revert to being
open
and
here
faster, as soon as they realize they've
gotten
distracted
(listen:
maybe that's all the great
masters
do that's different than what we do: aside from they choose faster,
maybe there's really no difference between us and them at all?), and so
they appear to be
enlightened
ongoingly and consistently ... except when they don't.
Being
open
and
here,
things are
the way
they are, and they're enough
the way
they are. Being
open
and
here,
the
horse
is galloping
the way
it should, and it
works
to ride the
horse
in the direction he's going. Being
open
and
here,
we can all be together in the most intimate
way
possible for
human beings
to be together. Being
open
and
here,
is the
possibility
of
living
life and being with it as it actually is, and not simply as the
unsatisfying process of always dealing with it ie of
always surviving it.