I am indebted to Douglas Harding, author of "On Having No Head" and
"Zen
and the
Rediscovery
of the Obvious", and to Gopal Rao who inspired
this conversation.
Transformationcalls
for (you could
say)
a
contextual shift.
That's the
shift
away from having one's
attention
on what's
"within",
towards having one's
attention
on and living with what's
out-here.
This almost always requires something of (you could
say)
a
mid-course
correction in
life.
"Mid-course
correction" is a navigational term. It refers to a necessary change
made to the direction of a vehicle,
ship,
airplane, rocket, or spacecraft at some
point
between the
beginning
and the end of its journey.
In this regard, I'm
discovering
(ie I'm
re-discovering,
actually) that nearly all of what I would describe as my most profound,
breakthrough,
eye-poppingobservations
(and here, by
"observations"
I'm
simply
referring to conclusions drawn from
direct experience
ie conclusions based ondirect experience),
are ever more and more divergent from ie are tangential to what were
once unquestioned, unchallenged fundamental ie
foundational constructs for me.
As a
decisive
illustration, I'm
discovering
my
experience
to be tangential to that which is
expressed
even in some of my favorite poets' dicta ("dicta" is the plural of
"dictum"), like
Rainer Maria Rilke's
seminal "The only journey is the one
within"
for example, a widespread, centuries-enduring, internationally
cherished concept which in my earlier exploratory
times
I was
whole-heartedly
subscribed to, totally aligned with, and
completely
immersed in. And bear in
mind
this exposition is not just
Rainer's:
his dictum has been echoed, repeated, and
recreated
by countless
thousands
if not by
millions
of others of both western and eastern persuasions throughout the ages,
including Ralph Waldo Emerson with his equally elegant "What lies
behind us and what lies before us, are tiny matters compared to what
lies
within
us.".
Yet ... it's ... not so (the Emperor isn't wearing any clothes).
All my erstwhile assumptions aside,
Life
actually doesn't
show upwithin.
Life
and living
show upout-here.
Out-here
are
our world,
the universe,
and
Life itself
ie the
platform
on which we do all our living, and us. In contrast, there
really
isn't much going on
within.
Now I know this last assertion will tread on the toes of ie will irk
many
sacredcows.
But
I'm sorry:
it's
true.
I'm not just idly tossing it out merely in order to be provocative.
Affording appropriate
respect
to the
heart-felt
wayRainer
has articulated the "journey ...
within"
(also
affording appropriate
respect
to my own erstwhile extensive and fascinating journey
within),
it's just
possible
that the
real
value of the journey
within,
actually only
shows up
when it's
discovered
(in one of those
out-of-time,
slack-jawed "Oh ... my
God!
..." double-take
moments)
that all there iswithin,
are
[feelings
/ emotions],
[thoughts
/
memories],
[state
of
mind
/ attitude], and bodily sensations, and
nothing
else ie when we finally, suddenly, shockingly,
indisputablyget
that the trail
within
has run dry ie that it's a
dead
end, a veritable cul de sac.